I remember having a conversation about a decade ago, when I was in my twenties, about where I saw myself in 10 years. "Carrie Bradshaw," I replied. I never saw myself as a marrying type, especially since I was a loner who was basically invisible to men all through my teenage years; so I ditched the idea of getting married and began envisioning myself as a single career woman.
I proceeded to attempt two relationships after that - and when they failed, I was determined that I was destined to be alone and it'd be better for me.
Until I met him.
Sometimes I wish I'd met him sooner, to spare myself all those unnecessary heartaches of the past. I would also be spared of all the social pressure I received throughout my twenties, where everybody and their mothers would a) ask why I was single, and b) give unsolicited advices to find someone as soon as possible. But when I think about it, I'm glad that I married him a bit later in life. And here's why.
I'd had enough experience and freedom
I had travelled to many countries, including a 3-week adventure throughout Europe; went clubbing and partying (although I didn't really like it), attended music festivals and gigs to a point of getting smashed in a moshpit; ran 5K; I had checked many places and items off my bucket list. I'd had the freedom to go wherever I wanted, the money to buy and eat or drink whatever my heart desired, the time to have an active social life and take on various hobbies. I'd had a fulfilling and enjoyable teaching career that spanned 11 years, and I met so many wonderful people along the way. So when I was proposed to, I felt that I had no more unfulfilled desires I still had to attend to; I was more than excited to enter this new chapter in my life: to be somebody's wife.
We could afford to fund our own wedding
Because we married later in life, we had enough savings to fund our wedding. This means that everything was totally according to our own budget and vision. We didn't need to compromise with anyone, and all the decisions regarding the wedding was exclusively ours. We also could start immediately with building a family, because we don't have any debts from the wedding.
We're mature enough to skip all the unnecessary drama
He made it clear from the very beginning that he wanted something serious. It could be that I was just dating asshats before, but when I was younger, none of the men I was involved with was even close to being ready for such commitment. I couldn't see it then, but I can definitely see it now. I also feel that my age and experience help a lot in communicating better and building a much better relationship than the ones I had when I was younger. It wouldn't probably work so wonderfully if I, say, met him when I was 19 and inexperienced. We've also both been hurt before, so we know not to ever impose such pain to each other.
We wouldn't ruin something that we waited so long for
We were so ready for commitment, and I know neither of us will betray it. It took us some time and effort to find each other. Such a long wait for the perfect partner to come along makes it so much more precious for us, and it'd be ridiculous to just toss it in the wind. We know how hard it is to find someone who has a perfect chemistry with you and loves you no matter what, so we can only appreciate what we have and nurture it any way we can.
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